Alive

 I AM...alive.

That is enough.

Who are YOU?

A question posed by a friend to which I replied (silly) a cinnamon candy heart :p lol
but some of the answers to this are as follows:

to answer the question
who am I
would take a lifetime
of reflection and study
but these are the things I know
TODAY
I am someone's daughter
I am someone's mother
I am someone's sister
I am someone's soulmate
I am someone's friend
I am someone's family
I am someone's safe haven
I am beautiful, vibrant and vivacious
I am soft, sweet and sensitive
I am a brick wall when I need to be
I am STUBBORN and sometimes that is a GOOD thing
I am home
I am light and life and joy
when I remember myself
I am dark, sorrowful and lonely
when I don't
I AM a red cinnamon candy heart
(bright, fun, delightful and with a kick)
I am everything I need to be and more
I am enough
I am intelligent and capable
and also weak and co-dependent
because I CHOOSE to be
I am independent and strong-willed
and also insecure and shy at the same time
I am warm hugs
I am love and loyalty
I am real and raw
I AM...whatever I SAY I am
and saying it becomes my TRUTH

I AM...Writing Declaration

Can anybody direct me to the open doorway leading to Acaresa? Oh that's right it's a world inside my head (with a very special tree which I wish to paint on the wall at some point)...nevertheless...some fascinating creatures live inside a world inside the world there and I would really like to explore the world they live in! So really...if you lose touch with me over the next weeks, months, years...that's very likely where I will be...maybe finding the answers to their world will help me in my own. It is long overdue time. No more whispered hopes and dreams and definitely NO more doubts and fears. I SOLIDIFY my desire to create. I COMMIT all that I am to the journey. I REFUSE to HIDE myself from myself anymore. I DON'T write for anyone but ME so if you think it sucks that may well be true to YOU but it IS and always has been MY belief that the expression of your heart, mind and soul is NOT a waste and NEVER wrong and doesn't SUCK whether others understand it or not. You gave them a raw, unblemished, untarnished, whole and perfect portion of your SOUL. I am not afraid of that anymore and so I AM capable. I AM ready. I AM EVERYTHING i need to be. I DO dream and I'm ready to make it REALITY. I. AM. MORE. THAN. ENOUGH! I AM! I declare it!

The Girly Girl

I am the one who...

appreciates beautiful things, clothes, shoes

and believes I deserve to have them

The Angel Within

I am the one who...

shines a light into the darkness

with LOVE

Shy Seductress

I am the one who...

hides inside myself

afraid of the woman I am

I am WOMAN and

I. AM. ENOUGH.

Eating for Comfort

I am the one who...

eats to comfort myself

to soothe the deep emotional scars I carry around with me

Hakuna Matata

I am the one who...

embraces what IS in the now

and goes with the flow of life

NO WORRIES

Fighting the Fight

I am the one who...

struggles and fights

for and against myself

for a better tomorrow

Take Time to BE

I am the one who...

takes time to BE

rest, relax, appreciate and enjoy life

The Best Friend

I am the one who...

offers comfort and companionship

Take a Deep Breath

I am the one who...

takes a deep breath

a moment

of time just to breathe

AJB

AJ, my son

the one who

I dreamed of

and miss every day xo

Aaron

Aaron, my brother

the one who

I remember

I waited for you but you never came home

Will

Will, my Godson

the one who

is always cute as a button and fun to chill with

Josh

Josh, my Godson

the one who

always has a smile and a hug and a good laugh

Bayo

Bayo

the one who

helped me see my own strengths

MFS

Akin

the one who 

taught me to appreciate

different sides

Dan

Dan, my brother-in-law

the one who

became my brother and friend

and made me laugh the hardest

Sis

My sis

the one who

is always in the same relationship with me

no matter what else changes in life